I come from a long line of “doers”. On my father’s side, my grandfather built a church, literally, up from the ground. On my mother’s side, my grandfather zig-zagged back and forth across the States proclaiming the Gospel. Doing stuff is in my blood. So, this month, having to stop and focus “on my knees”, has been a little bit hard for me. Let me explain…
First, I’m very thankful to report I’ve had my knee surgery (that’s why I have a big arrow drawn on my leg on the opening photo). I’ve been waiting to have it done for about two years and it is so good to finally have it repaired. In case you missed some of the details of the saga, in short, in the summer of 2018, I tore the ACL in my right knee while I was playing basketball with the young people after a youth meeting. So why the two years? Well, we have the NHS (National Health Service) here, which has pros and cons. Pro: it is free to access. (We do pay for it in taxes and I pay a one-off fee as an immigrant, but there’s no hospital bills that come in the post, no card machines at the secretaries’ desk, etc.) On the other hand, there is a lot of people trying to access it, so it’s stretched thin. With this context in mind, it perhaps makes a little more since that I was put off from having x-rays and an MRI for a while and then put on physiotherapy before finally getting an appointment with a surgeon. That all took about a year and then the wait time for the actual operation was another year. In total, it’s been about two years since my injury.
Coronavirus, however, made things difficult. Why? Because there was a mandatory 14 days of self-isolation prior to the surgery. I decided to try to make the most of my quarantine by repairing and decorating one of the walls in our house. It turned out to be a bigger job than I expected. I discovered that once upon a time the walls were a lovely shade of red! Also, during this time I tried to be a help to my Mom in Texas. If you aren’t aware she recently lost her job due to a string of incidents, one being catching Covid-19. My brother has started a “GoFundMe” (link here) as we try to support her during this difficult time. So, this self-isolation was a difficult period of time as there was the uncertainty if my surgery would be cancelled due to Covid-19. Well, praise the Lord, it wasn’t cancelled and I had the operation on November 19th!
I wish that was the end of the story, but as I’ve learned this month, “You have to rest, to get back on your feet.” Remember what I said earlier about being a “doer.” This hasn’t been easy for me. I feel like I’m here to “do a job for God” but I can’t “do anything” at the moment. Don’t get me wrong, they’ve got me on a strict regimen of exercises and “R.I.C.E.” (at one point I was icing 10 times a day!), but after all this rehab there’s not really any time or energy left for ministry. So, I’ve come to learn the importance of resting and simply spending time in God’s presence. I’m certainly no master of either, but I feel that I am learning that so much of life is not about me “doing for God” but about “being with God.” He is my best friend and what this life is all about.
The Month in Photos
So, would you join me in prayer for some of the things that are on my heart at the moment? There is a lot of exciting things on the horizon:
1. A new Colwyn Bay Youth for Christ Centre (Much to pray for here from Street work to School’s work and we want to start strong, things are looking promising for an official start in the early part of the new year),
2. Permanent Residence for me (I’ve had several delays due to Covid-19, please pray everything goes quickly and smoothly),
3. Having the finances to secure a mortgage for a home, and
4. My temptation with all of these being to “do, do, do” and to then feel bad if I “don’t”, but I’m learning that rest is important and being with God is more important than doing for God.
How clever of our Father to use a knee surgery to get me back “on my knees!” God bless and Thank you!